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11月16日 想把我唱给你听感恩节马上就要到了，换个南瓜颜色的衬底，应时应景。
真的非常喜欢新英格兰的秋天，五彩缤纷的叶子，去哪里散步都是美景。 周末在家有空闲，烤了一个南瓜面包，扑鼻的香味，有一种收获的喜悦。 在这个斑斓的季节，相爱使一切都变得美好而生动。 我终于不再害怕，执子之手。 你捧着我凉凉的手，哈气去暖，你可知道，暖的不只是手，还有心。 美丽的百合和玫瑰，不再独自起舞，有你的日子，空气都充满了甜味。  10月21日 芝加哥回来对芝加哥的印象不错，林立的高楼像纽约，但是人少一些，街道也干净整洁一些。 吃了最著名的deep dish pizza，看到了那个标志性的bean gate，去了向往已久的Art Institute of Chicago，遗憾的是没有时间river cruise，下次吧，这是个值得再去的城市。 开会自然是有收获，和老朋友的相聚更是让人欢喜。感慨大家的生命都在不同的阶段和轨道里前行，很有意思。 这种国际性的大会就是让人humble，神经学发展的好快，也扩展的好广，让人激动的同时也觉得压力。 越来越相信，不管做什么，在哪里做，最重要的是think big，所谓的passion和dream，就是色彩。 人生太短暂，真的没有时间去浪费。要做自己喜欢的事情，要和自己喜欢的人在一起。 5月16日 爱的勇气爱需要勇气。
多么老掉牙的一句话。
现在才慢慢领悟。
年少时的倾慕与眷恋，怎样的甜蜜梦幻或撕心裂肺，都一直是一个人的事情。
无论相思还是被相思，都是因为其中某个人年轻而丰盛的情感需要一个寄托。
人越长大，发现成熟的爱真的需要很大的勇气。
不是鲁莽强硬的那种，而是坚韧包容的那种。
因为爱意味着把心给一个人，而心是人最柔弱的部分。
付出，需要有勇气，冒着看不见未来不知道世间万千会带来怎样的变化的风险。
接受，需要有勇气，承担着风雨同舟的那份责任和守卫呵护那颗心的酸甜苦辣。
你，有勇气去爱吗？
"I am afraid," she said, "I have been told that if you really love someone you give that loved one the power to hurt and pain you in a way nothing else can."
"That's true," agreed he. "To love does mean to put yourself into the power of the loved one and to become very vulnerable to pain. But it is so happy to love. It is happy to love even if you are not loved in return. There is pain too, certainly, but Love does not think that very significant."
"Here is the seed of Love", he said to her. It was shaped exactly like a long, sharply-pointed thorn.
"The seed looks very sharp," she said shrinklingly. "Won't it hurt if you put it into my heart?"
He answered gently, "It is so sharp that it slips in very quickly. But, I have already warned you that Love and Pain go together, for a time at least. If you would know Love, you must know pain too. But when the seed of Love in your heart is ready to bloom, you will be loved in return."
4月24日 Phenomenal Woman--Maya AngelouPretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, The bend of my hair, the palm of my hand, The need of my care, 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. 4月9日 If you want meAre you really here or I am dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
For it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs
If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me
Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
When you know I really tried
To be a better one
To satisfy you
For you are everything to me
And I'll do what you ask me
If you let me be free
If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me
A song that never fails to make my eyes water.
The lyrics that seem to me apply for every relationship.
3月26日 春假两周的春假很快结束，抓住最后的几天去温暖的德州看了小玥玥。
我们花了四年的时间再次相聚，欢欣喜悦不足言表。
德州很大，我们跑了三个城市，很多的时间都在开车，也在说话，太多的风景要看，太多的心情要叙，时间太短。
照片已经放上来，每张的背后都有故事，都有我们的笑容。 2月14日 My ValentineI am in your room
Now there is no denying
What is in your eyes
When I look at you
Two shadows talking but they don't make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now
And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands
And suddenly I am shaking
As your fingers touch my skin
I don't need to understand
And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don't belong
I know I'll carry on
So I will lose myself and bare my soul
Take this chance cause heaven knows
I'm so far gone, my choice is made
And even if my heart should break
When I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right
I won't be afraid
cause even if my heart shall break
You are the best mistake I ever made
P.S. Happy Velentine's, dear jj.
 2月9日 姐姐让我更新，我就来汇报一下新英格兰的冬天很冷很长，今年的雪来得格外多，一场接着一场的下，地上的积雪就一直没有真正消融过。
不过酷寒的时候也是冬天快要结束的时候，已经能感觉到天色的延长，春天终会姗姗而来的。
开学三周多，学校的事情自然是要忙，上课，做TA，做实验，blablablablablabla，old same story。
晚上就是跳舞，几乎是专业的训练，练得腰腿酸痛，脚上起泡，不过很喜欢我的舞蹈老师，严厉中又有方法。他很cool，全职医生，跳了十多年舞，part-time表演和代课。
最近在读的书是《A Chance To Die》，Amy Carmicheal的传记。我从来对名人自传没有任何兴趣，但是传教士的传记除外。他们/她们坚定的信念，在这个欲望年代弥足珍贵。时代在变，有些东西是永恒的，信仰就是其中之一。
姐姐，最近很想和你一起喝酒聊天，想“与君一醉一陶然”呢，真的。不知道今年能不能在澳门相见，希望你一切都好吧。
1月18日 哥斯达黎加行纪
在哥斯达黎加一周的时间飞逝而过，从温暖的热带回到寒冷的新英格兰，还有点不适应。回来几乎睡了一天，现在听着在首都San Jose一个小店买的CD，用哥斯达黎加传统乐器marimba演奏的音乐，趁着记忆还新鲜，写写承诺给朋友的游记。
哥斯达黎加是中美洲一个的国家，地域虽小，却非常美丽。东临加勒比海，西临太平洋。我和朋友这次很遗憾没有去海边，一直都在北部一个叫Arenal的火山下呆着。Arenal是世界十大活火山之一，每隔半个小时左右就会喷发烟雾或者熔岩。在我们住的地方，就可以看见这些神奇的自然现象。（有兴趣可以浏览官方网站http://www.arenal.net/）我们从首都San Jose坐车到Arenal，三个小时的路程，很多山路颠簸崎岖，路很窄，司机还开得飞快，我的心一直都悬着。后来发现哥斯达黎加的路况和交通就是那样疯狂的，当地人都习惯了。
我们住的度假村很美，池塘庭院，亭榭楼台，花鸟鱼虫。我听着各种虫鸣入睡，被鸟儿的歌声叫醒，吃饭时蜂鸟在身边的花丛中觅食，苍鹰在头顶翱翔，很难得有如此亲近自然的感觉。其实整个旅程都不停的让我深深感慨大自然的和谐，万物生命的美丽。我骑马爬高山，穿过热带雨林，在溪流中行进。美景一次次打动我，语言太有限，太苍白。只有身临其境，呼吸才能被霎那间震撼的停止。
我有时候想到一切都还不确定的未来，难免心头焦虑。这次在旅行中看到极为丰富的动植物种，整个生态系统那么精巧协作，才意识到上帝创造的万物各自有各自的一席之地，相信每个人也是“天生我材必有用”，一定会找到自己的位置。
和朋友一起去山顶滑索和瀑布峡谷攀岩，非常刺激也非常好玩。不知道怎样能在space里放上录的video，真正心跳加快肾上腺飙升的瞬间都是照片所无法表达的。
当地人很热情友好，喜欢他们天然质朴的文化和热爱生活的态度，哥斯达黎加不是个发达国家，许多路边的房子都很简陋，可以看到物质的贫乏。当地人却依然享受自己所拥有的那部分，不管是多还是少。
我和朋友经常去火山脚下的小镇上购物吃饭，镇上聚集了很多来自美国和欧洲的背包客，和他们的聊天中也让我受益。常常在想旅行的意义到底在于什么，大概很重要的一部分就是其对生命旅途本身的代表性。行走在人世间，走走停停，天地宽广，心灵也要不断地扩大才好。
无论文字还是照片，终究只是部分的记录。身心得到的，会融入我的生命中。 1月1日 After A While---by Veronica A. Shoffstall
"After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company isn't security.
(Kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.)
After awhile you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and the inevitable has a way of crumbling in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you stand too long in one place.
So, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers.
And you learn you really can endure,
that you really do have worth.
You learn that with every good-bye comes the dawn." 12月7日 Happy Holidays!心情很好，就来记录一下。
最近在学跳舞，发现这个东西让人上瘾，跳起来真的很happy，什么都不用想，什么都不用care，只要move your body。
体会所有partner dance，发觉得其中很多技巧和道理都适用于relationship。
爱情是什么？就是音乐响起，你我起舞，you lead, I will follow. We shall breathe together, dance together, until two become one.
每周末和朋友都喝酒跳舞到深夜，昨晚出来刚好碰到今年的第一场雪，纷纷扬扬，美丽极了。
我们用舌头追逐着雪花，大声唱着let it snow, let it snow, let it snow……
今天去买了圣诞树和很多挂饰，开始装点我comfy & cozy的家。
My panda says Happy Holidays to all of you, my dear friends!
 12月6日 Listen to a little boy's dating advice
Alec Greven, a 9-year-old boy in Colo., wrote "How to talk to girls"--about the dos and don'ts of dating. Read this excerp to see how good his dating advice really is. I think they are pretty amazing. Especially from a little boy. My impression of 9-year-old boy is messy, mischievous and sometime even nasty.
Chapter 1: The facts of life Sometimes, you get a gir to like you, then she ditches you. Life is hard, move on. Tip: About 73 percent of regular girls ditch boys; 98 percent of pretty girls ditch boys.
Or sometimes it just doesn't work out. I had a crush on a girl in preschool. Then my family had to move, so I have to let her wash out of my mind.
You also have to be aware that girls win most of the arguments and have most of the power. If you know that now, things might be easier. Finally, if you try for too many girls, you will have jealousy issues and might end up with nobody. It is really best to just go for one.
If you do get a girl to like you, that's a victory. Winning victory is the dream for most boys, but it is very rare. What does it take to win victory? Read on and find out!
Chapter 2: Crushes Many boys get crushes on girls. But it can be very hard to get a girl to like you. Sometimes it takes years! Whatever happens, just don't act desperate. Girls don't like desperate boys. So what do you do if you have a crush on a girl? You need to get her to like you. You can also show off a skill, like playing soccer or anything that you are good at. Tip: To get a girl to like you, talk to her and get to know her.
If you are in elementary school, try to get a girl to like you, not to love you. Wait until middle school to try to get her to love you. Otherwise you have to hold on to her for a long time and that would be very hard. Tip: Most boys in elementary school can hold on to a girl for only 30 days.
Many boys who have crushes don't know how to act around a girl. Some boys tease girls they like and are mean to them. Some boys say silly things to girls and act goofy. Some boys think they are acting cool by showing off. This is not a good approach.
The right thing to do when you have a crush is: Never show off too much. Don't be silly and goofy. Control you hyperness(cut down on suger if you need to) Make sure you have good friends who won't try to take the girl you like. Finally, you have to be able to get over a crush if it doesn't work out. A crush is like a love disease. It can drive you mad. Try not to let it get you down. ^_^ What do you think? I love these cute words. Hope everyone enjoy sweetness and bitterness of love. 11月26日 Be merry & Be thankful匆匆忙忙的，从D.C.回来了，感觉不错，有焕然的新鲜能量输入到体内。
在一个地方呆久了，就会有要离开的渴望，哪怕只是短短的getaway，也能把自己从狭窄的圈子中解脱出来，看看外面的天地那么宽广，就不会再在怜悯心中小小的悲哀了。
开会，看poster，有收获，仍然不喜欢要发paper，要申请grant的压力，但是越来越喜欢neuroscience知识本身了，brain真是个神奇的东西。
谢谢Lupeng, Yanyan, Daniel，陪我吃饭，陪我转museum，我太喜欢博物馆了，真是流连忘返。
明天是感恩节，很传统的美国节日，Happy Turkey Day，Be merry，Be thankful....
11月13日 季节"Live in each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influence of each."
---Henry David Thoreau
秋雨绵绵，情绪难免受到阴郁的影响。叶子落尽，天黑得很早。尖尖的教堂顶突兀在山坡上，车灯如流水，不知逝去何处。
朋友说夏天见面时觉得我很茁壮。喜欢这个词，现在非常需要这种生命力旺盛的感觉。愿自己能掌握心中节奏，冷暖皆清凉。 10月15日 Beautiful New England Fall美丽的新英格兰秋天来了，上周末登高，看到满山遍野各种颜色的树叶，十分动人。
季节的变化，四季的轮回，好朋友Sue的生命也要进入一个新的阶段，她的婚礼下个月初举行，我做为她的伴娘，真是开心啊。
这几天就忙着给她准备bridal shower，设计请柬，通知朋友，买蛋糕，装饰屋子，还要帮她挑选婚纱，预定做头发和化妆的salon，好多事情要赶快进行……
不多说了，放上来爬山的照片
这棵crazy的树还活着，朋友告诉我，仔细看这其实是两棵树盘结合二为一，i think it is pretty amazing……
再来一张美丽的树叶，和傻笑的我……
9月19日 Two Poems 第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。 第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。 第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。 第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。 第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。 第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。 第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。 第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。 第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。 第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。 但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。 安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。 ------------六世达赖喇嘛 仓央嘉措 君生我未生，我生君已老。 君恨我生迟，我恨君生早。 君生我未生，我生君已老。 恨不生同时，日日与君好。 我生君未生，君生我已老。 我离君天涯，君隔我海角。 我生君未生，君生我已老。 化蝶去寻花，夜夜栖芳草。 -----唐代铜官窑瓷器题诗 9月6日 咖啡晚饭过后忽然很想喝杯咖啡，很久没有自己煮了，咖啡壶上落满猫毛，洗刷干净，煮上一壶starbucks espresso。
已经习惯了喝黑的纯咖啡，不加任何东西，那样才能尝出咖啡本身的味道，一种酸醇感。
实验做一整天，需要给心情加点味道，便给咖啡里倒入French Vanilla creamer和chocolate syrup，香气弥漫，浓郁诱人。
打开橱柜找咖啡杯，发现只有喝酒用的玻璃杯和五颜六色的高脚杯，才想起来唯一的一个咖啡杯平时都用来喝泡着柠檬的冰水，曾经有一个咖啡杯在一次追逐猫猫的时候打碎了，还记得那个杯子是圣诞节得到的礼物，上面印有雪花的图案。安妮宝贝说“恋物的人，内心对人的温度都都很低”。
只能用透明的玻璃杯，看到乳白色的奶油和黑色的咖啡融合，觉得把奶油称为mate很合适。
想起来要是有绿茶粉就好了，可以煮纯东洋风味的绿茶咖啡。绿茶优雅清香，略带苦涩口感；咖啡浓郁厚重，略带圆柔酸味和甜香口感；两种完全不同的味道在口中交流激荡，如同东西两种文化的交流过程，在冲突和融合中寻求安定的平衡点。
窗外天色一点点变暗，灯光渐渐明亮起来。猫卧在我的面前，非常仔细地舔着身体。每次和猫猫亲昵过后他都会再认真地梳理一遍皮毛直到柔顺。我那么喜欢他，他却并不那么在乎。
翻开书，刚好碰到一段文字，氤氲在温润的咖啡中，溶化。
“她对他说，我很爱你，却不知道该如何靠近你，所以觉得离开也是可以的，并没有什么不同，结果反正都是这样，是好是坏都不重要，重要的是我曾经迷恋你，就像我迷恋一把晚清的雕花木椅。”
晚上要去一个爵士乐踢踏舞的音乐会，喝完咖啡，读完文字后，开始化妆。
不需要浓妆，只是淡淡地打好粉底，很仔细的刷睫毛，涂上透明的唇彩，擦上香水。
军绿色的吊带，有荷叶边的柔和，戴上所有绿色系的手镯，各种玉石天珠，一大把的镯子显出手腕的纤细。
挂上明亮的耳坠，对着镜子里面的自己浅浅微笑，这样就很好，可以出门了。
夜色温柔，凉风如洗。
忽然思念起那种善解人意的温存，这种亢奋振颤的情绪，或许是想你的感觉。
现在是凌晨2点22分，让我一直都这么醒着的缘故，是咖啡，还是你？ 8月20日 When I Say "I Am Christian"----by Carol WimmerWhen I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not shouting, "I've been saved!" I'm whispering, "I get lost! That's why I chose this way" When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't speak with human pride I'm confessing that I stumble-needing God to be my guide When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not trying to be strong I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not bragging of success I'm admitting that I've failed and cannot ever pay the debt When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't think I know it all I submit to my confusion asking humbly to be taught When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not claiming to be perfect My flaws are far too visible but God believes I'm worth it When I say, "I am a Christian," I still feel the sting of pain I have my share of heartache which is why I seek His name When I say, "I am a Christian," I do not wish to judge I have no authority--I only know I'm loved 8月11日 我的中国心去宾州玩了一周刚回来，很好的旅行，a lot of eye-opening experiences and so much fun.
对Mark Twain说过的 "Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry and narrow-mindedness." 有了更加深刻的理解。
虽然每天都有记录旅行中的所见所闻，回来后却又懒于整理那些感受。还是放上照片来比较容易，旅途中录了一些video，却不知道怎样放到space中，只好放到我的facebook里面了。
奥运正酣，国内的朋友爽啊，在这里NBC电视台买断转播权，我只能看到有美国运动员参加的比赛……
不过NBC不仅转播赛事，还穿插很多关于中国文化旅游的介绍，挺有意思的。
我是和一群美国朋友一起看的开幕式，他们都被震住了，所有的人都跟我说amazing，说best，我心里那一个美啊……
今天一个美国朋友还跟我说，看比赛的中国人不仅仅只为中国队加油，还为其他国家的队员加油，真正体现了奥林匹克精神，听得我那一个民族自豪感暴涨……
虽然有很多华人同胞散落在世界各地，中国对西方世界还是很有神秘感。
我上个月给美国高中生讲中国文化，解释了很多他们好奇的问题。
康州的首府城市报纸记者上周采访了我，她想了解中国的独生子女政策问题，我尽量回答并且澄清了西方媒体的一些片面论断。
真的希望越来越多的人真正了解中国。也希望我的祖国越来越强大。 |
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