life of river

爱需要勇气。

多么老掉牙的一句话。

现在才慢慢领悟。

年少时的倾慕与眷恋，怎样的甜蜜梦幻或撕心裂肺，都一直是一个人的事情。

无论相思还是被相思，都是因为其中某个人年轻而丰盛的情感需要一个寄托。

人越长大，发现成熟的爱真的需要很大的勇气。

不是鲁莽强硬的那种，而是坚韧包容的那种。

因为爱意味着把心给一个人，而心是人最柔弱的部分。

付出，需要有勇气，冒着看不见未来不知道世间万千会带来怎样的变化的风险。

接受，需要有勇气，承担着风雨同舟的那份责任和守卫呵护那颗心的酸甜苦辣。

你，有勇气去爱吗？

 

"I am afraid," she said, "I have been told that if you really love someone you give that loved one the power to hurt and pain you in a way nothing else can."

"That's true," agreed he. "To love does mean to put yourself into the power of the loved one and to become very vulnerable to pain. But it is so happy to love. It is happy to love even if you are not loved in return. There is pain too, certainly, but Love does not think that very significant."

"Here is the seed of Love", he said to her. It was shaped exactly like a long, sharply-pointed thorn.

"The seed looks very sharp," she said shrinklingly. "Won't it hurt if you put it into my heart?"

He answered gently, "It is so sharp that it slips in very quickly. But, I have already warned you that Love and Pain go together, for a time at least. If you would know Love, you must know pain too. But when the seed of Love in your heart is ready to bloom, you will be loved in return."

 

 

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Are you really here or I am dreaming

I can't tell dreams from truth

For it's been so long since I have seen you

I can hardly remember your face anymore

 

When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence

I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

 

If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me

 

Are you really sure that you believe me

When others say I lie

I wonder if you could ever despise me

When you know I really tried

To be a better one

To satisfy you

For you are everything to me

And I'll do what you ask me

If you let me be free

 

If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me

 

 

A song that never fails to make my eyes water.

The lyrics that seem to me apply for every relationship.

 

 

两周的春假很快结束，抓住最后的几天去温暖的德州看了小玥玥。

我们花了四年的时间再次相聚，欢欣喜悦不足言表。

德州很大，我们跑了三个城市，很多的时间都在开车，也在说话，太多的风景要看，太多的心情要叙，时间太短。

照片已经放上来，每张的背后都有故事，都有我们的笑容。

I am in your room

Now there is no denying

What is in your eyes

When I look at you

Two shadows talking but they don't make a sound

Words have lost their meaning now

 

And the air has turned electric

Now I know the time is right

To put myself into your hands

And suddenly I am shaking

As your fingers touch my skin

I don't need to understand

 

And if tomorrow proves me wrong

I swear I don't belong

I know I'll carry on

 

So I will lose myself and bare my soul

Take this chance cause heaven knows

I'm so far gone, my choice is made

And even if my heart should break

 

When I lose myself with you tonight

Fall apart or hold on tight

Wrong or right

I won't be afraid

cause even if my heart shall break

You are the best mistake I ever made

 

P.S. Happy Velentine's, dear jj.

 

 

新英格兰的冬天很冷很长，今年的雪来得格外多，一场接着一场的下，地上的积雪就一直没有真正消融过。

不过酷寒的时候也是冬天快要结束的时候，已经能感觉到天色的延长，春天终会姗姗而来的。

开学三周多，学校的事情自然是要忙，上课，做TA，做实验，blablablablablabla，old same story。

晚上就是跳舞，几乎是专业的训练，练得腰腿酸痛，脚上起泡，不过很喜欢我的舞蹈老师，严厉中又有方法。他很cool，全职医生，跳了十多年舞，part-time表演和代课。

最近在读的书是《A Chance To Die》，Amy Carmicheal的传记。我从来对名人自传没有任何兴趣，但是传教士的传记除外。他们/她们坚定的信念，在这个欲望年代弥足珍贵。时代在变，有些东西是永恒的，信仰就是其中之一。

姐姐，最近很想和你一起喝酒聊天，想“与君一醉一陶然”呢，真的。不知道今年能不能在澳门相见，希望你一切都好吧。